INTP 5w4 594

 What's an INTP 5w4 like?

This will be a long narration and even a semi-storytelling from me, as I have been trying to find the right identity for myself, recently being which is the correct enneagram typing for me and yes, why don't I share it here? Have fun reading :)

A short briefing of each labeling:

The INTP type is logical, emotionally detached in general, creative within their work and humour, creature of habit and has a hidden warmth, if you interact with them long enough and have decided to trust you.

The 5w4 type is a quiet, seeker of deep and even hidden knowledge because of their own curiosity to find out the truth of not only the world and its residents, but also who are themselves really are through the lens of creativity and deep reflection such as art, music and philosophy.

Before we continue, I would like to give additional category, which is the Eneagram Tritype, as it clarify furthers how I function outside of my head triad.

Enneagram typing can be specified further other than its wing, which is the tritype. Tritype consists of three digits, which each digit comes from three different sections of triads. My tritype is 594.

The 594 tritype consists the enneagram 4, 5, and 9. This means that they have the quality of being quiet, dream-like and imaginative as they most main traits. The 5 guides the head to strategize against fear of intimacy by being more reserved and just observe. The 9 guides the instinct to be more accepting of others in order to keep harmony and fear of seperation. The 4 guides the heart to be more aware of the identity of themselves and follow what they believe is who they are.

From here, we can imagine what it is like to be an INTP 5w4 with 594 in daily life, at least from my personal experience.

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You woke up, its morning. You try to remember the imaginative dream you had, which you wish you can explore more, except if its a nightmare. The dream you have would usually be exploring a massive building with oddly numerous floors and things uncanny thing to interact, if it was possible. Sometimes, the building could consist of long flight of stairs, going nowhere. Ah, this could be inspired from those RPG or first-person exploring games you have played. “It must have been very interesting…, but I will forget about it anyways.” At times, you will find in these places some old friends that you regret not talking much that sometimes looming at the back of your head. Si, stop being so annoying.…

And then you remember, you have school for today. Another part of boring routine that will start two hours later. Well, that can be done later, you can just watch or surf some game theories, psychology terms, playlist of instrumental music or just some fun easter eggs of the games you have saved as watch later or you find at home section. “OH, crap no, it has been 30 minutes! I should shower.” Keeping track of time neatly is not your expertise and you have to drive one hour to your school. Gosh, what a morning from your burst of Ti-Ne.

School. A place where you can either find friends that unfortunately you can not really deeply bond with, unless you are lucky to got one, or simply put more effort to try to find that one perfect friend.

Aha, you realize, this is reality, it”s not that simple.

As you internally sighed, you accepted it as it is. Fearing of completely left out, you try to talk a bit to few classmates near you about homework or simply the schedule, even you can simply do it by checking it on your phone.

“Why do I worry too much of doing something as simple as this? It is act of caring! But, I don’t like faking myself and too much energy… I don’t even know these people, but no, I have to try! Everybody has interesting traits and story. I will try to get to know them and even contemplate on their actions according to their type, even through first, I must ask this superficial question that everybody ask to others.”

Facial expressions. That one thing you are dreaded for life. How in the world you can make a happy expression, when you don’t feel happy! You curse your inferior Fe function, as it doesn’t always work as you wanted it to be. But no, you don’t want to be regarded as a cold person and you have to just simply curve your mouth, right? “OH yeah, I’m fine! haha. How about you?”

“How terrible.” you think. You wish people just accept you as well, you.

You want to listen to music. Today isn’t even that bad, but some old good music can relieve some stress after hours of lessons and people. Maybe even pair it with reading some interesting articles about MBTI or Enneagram you may have countless time read but you need to find more patterns to have a complete grasp of the topic. Nice, nice. Also, maybe checking some discord channels with interesting debates or discussions of the topic you like.

During stressful moments, it is not often for you to ponder about life, but hey, you think it is a good time to do it! What are the things you want to think about?

For starters, why do you have to study in the first place? Is it good to follow your dreams? Would that be a selfish act to your parents, since you seek harmony and no more arguing? Fe, well you are doing your part here, good. And finally, what is the correct way to feel love, or is it even possible to reach that extreme part of emotional spectrum? You don’t even know yourself. Interesting questions of the day to ponder as you are walking back to your class.

Finally, school has ended. At least you have did somewhat good of understanding the lectures, just a bit distracted by your random thoughts. And now, you are ready to venture more into the worlds in your digital devices or just simply draw things you have been imagining in your head. Exciting.

The world of art combining with fiction is the best place you want to stay. Imagination flourish like the wave of the sea, a never-ending adventure and the best of all is when you have a friend with the same interests as you! Though, scratch that last point, you need more effort to find them anyways. Still, it’s a wish that you deeply hold on to. Someday, somewhere, there will be one. There will.

Anyway though, fictional characters are surely fun to imagine. What kind of plot you want to implement this time? How do the characters interact and discover their purpose and maybe help each other to find it? Maybe… a bit of romance?

You have always been good to make stories out of blue, brainstorming never hurts! You scroll through articles, blogs and maybe even watch some movies to inspire you.

As you watch some movies, you think about your classmates from school. Honestly, not all of them are superficial, some can be nice. You rememberer you gave a pun that you made out of nowhere and your classmate laughed at it, as they commented how you give it with absent-minded expression. A weird mixture for humour delivery. Eh, maybe you can work it from there.

Hours goes by…

Ah yes, taking a shower, you haven’t really done it since you have arrived at home. 8.30 pm? Yeah definitely shower time, gotta keep Si in check. Talking about Si, you just remembered you have a homework you haven’t really check for couple of days. You check your to-do list. Thank goodness, the due is two days later.

Definitely you can do this.

You’re not a failure to society, to your family and to yourself.

Yeah… not you being forgetful and can do it from five days ago. No, there is no time for regret.

Deep breath… You shake your head and start to work on it until midnight. What is sleep?

12 o’clock at midnight. Wow, time flew so fast and you think it’s time to sleep. You wish for a continuous dream from last night but you shrug it off, not thinking it will be possible. Now, now… let’s just sleep.

2 o’clock. You are still woken up from some random ideas or concepts you just pondered. Ah crap, you’re doing it again. Sleep, sleep…, sleep…..

Today was okay, at least.

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Well, that’s the end of my storytelling. I didn’t intend to write it this long, but it was surely fun to make. The point is, I want to make sense how the type can be delivered and explained into a real example along with a prior brief explanation, so it can be easily grasp or maybe even relate. Hopefully it has been helpful :)